Today, I glanced over Romans 9:1-3:
I am speaking the truth in Christ--I am not lying; my conscience bears me
witness in the Holy Spirit-- that I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in
my heart. For I could wish that I myself were accursed and cut off from Christ
for the sake of my brothers, my kinsmen according to the flesh. (ESV)
What does it take to get me to that place? Today in RA class, I was challenged by Dr. Mark Tatlock (Vice President for Student Life at TMC) and Siona to care for people's souls. I was challenged not to assume that guys are genuine, born-again, redeemed Christians. The Holy Spirit, in a way that hasn't happened in a long time, nudged me to consider how earnestly I am seeking to follow his radical call to care for others, to be burdened for their eternal state. What is more important? Why do I pray so little for my unsaved family members, for my enemies (Matthew 5:44), and even for my friends? I think it is because I succumb to my fleshly desires to look out for myself first. But I'm not called to that. I'm called to love others "fervently with a pure heart." (I Peter 1:22b).
Paul said:
Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more
significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests,
but also to the interests of others. (ESV)
Jesus said:
You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul
and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is
like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. (ESV)
(emphasis mine)
In Romans 9:3, the word "accursed" is the English translation of the Greek word anathema. It means "to devote to destruction in eternal hell." Paul is essentially saying that, if he could, he would trade his salvation for the salvation of his Jewish brothers. This amazing passage parallels Exodus 32:32, where Moses says the same thing. The context is the wilderness and the children of Israel have turned from Yahweh - the one true God - to worship a golden calf with an idolatrous and exceedingly wicked orgy. Moses begs God to forgive the Hebrews, even offering his life: "but if not, please blot me out of your book that you have written" (ESV).
My point is simply this: I should feel this way, and most often I don't.
God, grant me the grace to love like you love. Teach me to weep and groan over the souls of those who don't know you. Abba, Father, Daddy, soften my heart to follow your Son's words: "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends" (John 15:13) (ESV)
Amen.